I stepped on the scale today and was pleasantly surprised. I’ve lost about 15 pounds total, which is nothing to sneeze at. I’m just confused as to why I don’t feel like it, and my clothes are not any looser, or anything like that. Oh well, all in good time, I guess.

I’m STILL waiting for my exercise table. Last I heard, it would be here between Aug. 29 and Sept. 5. Only about 5 weeks late. I can’t wait to get in daily sessions with my Chi Machine! Some time after the table gets here and I’m all organized, I’m going on a 7-day retreat within my home. No phone, computer, or television (unless I need help, of course I’m allowed to call someone, and my Home Care will still be here every day). I’ve always wanted to go on a meditation retreat but I physically can’t handle it. So, I’m going to work out a way to do my own, right here. Meditation, self-hypnosis CDs, self work, reading, exercise, eating well, staying quiet and focused and turned off from the outside world.

I’ve been eating chocolate every day. A friend of mine introduced me to Xocai, but even before I bought any of that I was eating a bit of organic dark chocolate every day. I decided to try a one week supply of Xocai nuggets, but to be honest they taste exactly the same as the dark chocolate I was already eating. I was also given a CD to listen to about the benefits of Xocai, but it’s actually a doctor talking about the great health benefits of unprocessed dark chocolate in general, not necessarily Xocai. So, I think I’m going to just keep eating a bit of organic dark chocolate every day for 1/10 the cost of the Xocai. I may end up ordering a case of nuggets eventually, but I take so many other vitamins and supplements I’m not so sure I need that. I do like the idea of “needing” 3 nuggets of chocolate a day for health benefits! Just in the past week I have noticed a bit of a difference; the puffiness in my feet has gone down and I’m sleeping better. So if I make myself eat my own chocolate 3 times/day and still see those benefits, I may not need to spend money on Xocai. We’ll see. Just thinking out loud…

My mom fixed me a bunch of sandwiches and brought them over on the weekend. Tuna, chicken, and PB & J. I appreciate that she is trying to help with giving me food that is easy for me to grab and eat, I really do! The only problem is, all that bread and fattening fillings (mayo, peanut butter) and it’s certainly not vegetarian! (I’ve been so good!) I guess we’ll see how it goes. I have a freezer full of sandwiches and Anahata bars. I just need to not eat them all in one day. Or even one week!